Wave the white flag. I will admit it. Homeschooling is NOT for me.
When I decided to venture back into this world of “weirdos and socially-jacked up kids”, no one told me how hard it would be. No one mentioned the stress. Or the food. Or the overall consuming day. What I did hear from my homeschooling mama-friends was “It’s easy!” “You’ll love it.” “You have so much freedom in your day.” Etc. Etc.
What my non-homeschooling mama-friends said was “Why the < bleep > would you want your kids around you all day?” “When will you have YOU time?” “You’re too busy to homeschool. What are you thinking?”
What was I thinking?
Since I started our new year in August, it has been tough. I yell at the kids by nature. I came from a family of yellers (not always a bad thing…just a habit that has stuck). I yell. Marty isn’t a fan. He hates it actually. He’s so laid back and calm. We are the ying and yang or something like that. I want to be in control ALL THE TIME. I need to be. I let things bother me when they shouldn’t. These are all probably qualities that a mom who wants to homeschool shouldn’t possess.
- No one told me I had to cook. I hate to cook. I don’t know how. Call me spoiled but I never had to cook growing up and most of my adult life I haven’t. I survived by heading to my Granny’s, my moms, or out to eat with my dad. No one told me that I would need to cook 3 (THREE) meals per day plus endless snacks. No one told me my kitchen counter would be cluttered with random cups because they can’t use the same one all day.
- No one told me that cleaning my house would be daunting. Seriously! I am home most of the day and I can’t find the time to clean. Then when I do, the kids invite their friends to walk on the newly mopped floors.
- No one told me that my only free time would be after they go to sleep. I end up watching all my trash shows from the dvr and then complain in the morning when I have to get up.
- No one told me that the laundry would never end because since they are home they will change clothes 4 times per day. Sometimes more. This is mostly KB.
- No one told me that teaching two kids in two different grades with two different curriculums would be hard.
- No one told me that I would have to wait in line to use the computer.
- No one told me that audiobooks from the library app would become my best friend since I don’t have time to read books for myself anymore. However, I have been reading many literature books with Bubba.
- No one told me that I would feel defeated and question what my kids are learning.
- No one told me that I would learn to cook. And love it. Nor did they say I would dvr cooking shows to then make those meals myself.
- No one told me I would start a garden, eliminate sugar and processed foods from our diet, and eat organic.
- No one told me that my kids are great cleaners and we get everything done a lot quicker when they help.
- No one told me that I have plenty of free time. Even when I teach other homeschool kids at a local co-op, I have free time. 24 hours is a lot.
- No one told me that laundry is just that – laundry. It doesn’t have to be an everyday event and unless we all have clean undies – we will be okay.
- No one told me teaching two kids will work itself out. It’s give and take. They are figuring it out with me.
- No one told me that I would come to enjoy not being on a computer / phone / internet as much anymore.
- No one told me that I would fall in love with audiobooks since smart phones and vehicle bluetooth came around. I am not ignoring you…just listening.
- No one told me that feeling defeated and questioning their education is normal. It’s not going to be easy and it shouldn’t be. If I don’t question it all, then how will I ever know if they are truly learning anything?
Homeschool isn’t hard. But it isn’t a fairy tale either. There have been a lot of great days and a lot of “pull my eye lashes off” ones too. We are busy moms who shuffle kids from A to Z because amazingly kids who are homeschooled are offered classes when public/private kids are still at school. Why wouldn’t we get swim lessons, guitar lessons, dance classes, cooking classes, museum tours, and horseback riding lessons out the way before school ends? It frees up our afternoons so the neighborhood kids can play together.
I am blessed and I don’t even know it. But seriously, homeschooling isn’t awful. 🙂