I just deleted almost 200 posts from 2012 until now. That’s when I started this blog. This blog was started to capture my life with 2 kids going to 3. KB was a surprise. A “Hello. You’re pregnant.” It then turned in to this crazy DIY blog for about 6 months. Then it was homeschooling. Then it was my photography. Then back to homeschool. Then I tried to talk about my almost 30lb weight loss and food-life change. Now it is a mess. I just started deleting in mass quantities. Why? Who knows? I don’t. I am slightly over my blog but then I get feedback from readers who love it. Maybe they are just being too kind. As I was deleting the posts I ran across some old ones. Old ones. Not even that old really. Since January I have felt like I aged significantly. I figured out how to live on a zero income with limited savings. I watched my <maternal> uncle pass away from cancer in January. I had to put down my best friend, my old man, Hercules, in February. He was almost 12 years old. I caught up with my first cousins when my <paternal> uncle passed away from an infection in Florida in April. The following weekend we found my <maternal> aunt had died suddenly in her home. All of them were in their 50’s/early 60’s. My <maternal> great-uncle just passed away from an inoperable brain tumor this week. It has been a lot. It’s exhausting. It’s physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually exhausting. My bees have seen more death than I seen from 0-18 years of age. Maybe even 0-25. Then there is Marty. He is back in the swing of work (which is a huge blessing) and it’s consuming.
I don’t know where this is all going. I don’t know where what my plans are But life has certainly changed a lot in the last 9 months.