Happiness Sucks Sometimes. That’s it. End post.
Today (Sunday) has been really hard. I am not sure why I have been struggling so hard but today has just been rough. Happiness was not even on my radar. I couldn’t find it anywhere.
Maybe it was the kids. The kids have been very hard to deal with lately. Okay. Let’s be honest. The kids have been hard to deal with for about 3 months. Since we went on our road trip out to Wyoming, they have been getting under my skin. They fight. I get that. But they have attitudes. These attitudes are not normal. I have a pre-teen. One who might as well be a teen because she is the middle child and apparently screwed over all the time.
KB is in her own world of spaz so I know how to deal with her. It’s hard sometimes to be mad at her. She’s so little. And her voice is so precious with her messed up language. It’s cute.
Since the hurricane went through, I’ve seen a lot of destruction to this city. I took the kids around town since the curfew has been lifted, roads are open, and the police and national guard aren’t blocking streets anymore. It was a lot to take in. The city was cleaned up but seeing the people, especially the homeless people, was hard. I’m blessed. Beyond blessed actually. And they have so little. That little is now nothing. It’s hard to see them. To walk by and say hello and now that there is nothing left.
Happiness Sucks Sometimes. And that sometimes has hit me. Marty is busy with work and it makes me miss him. I can’t make it to a beach to sit on the sand or walk out on the sand bar. I can’t let the wind blow my hair in every direction. Ah. Happiness Sucks Sometimes. Maybe tomorrow will be better.